Sunday, February 26, 2012

Assalamulaikum wr wb.
Im so sorry for the late post.
Before i post, lets start with bismillah..
Allahumma solli 'ala Muhammad Ya Rabbi Solli 'alaihi was sohbihi wa aalihi wa sallim.

A short cerpen i made.
Every perfection is attributed to Allah SWT.
All the flaws and faults are mine and for that Astaghfirullah Al-'Aazhim.

Bismillahirahmanirrahim
Sinar bulan menerangi malam, menemani Hamra yang diselubungi kesepian. Matanya berkaca, pipinya basah dan kedua tangannya digenggam erat seperti seseorang yang sedang risau. Kerinduannya pada seseorang semakin dirasa, semakin memakan jiwa. Tidak tertahan lagi rasa rindu itu sehinggakan hanya dia mampu menzahirkannya dengan linangan air mata. Tiba-tiba Hamra tersenyum, teringat ketika mula-mula mengenal si kekasihnya.

Hamra dulunya tidak pernah mengambil berat soal akhirat, apa yang dia mahukan hanyalah sekadar nikmat di dunia sahaja. Dulu apa yang difikirkannya ialah, hidupnya itu biarlah dipenuhi dengan hiburan dan kepuasan atau erti kata lain dia mahu enjoy all the way. Sehinggakan 23 tahun dari hidupnya dihabiskan dengan kepuasan dunia sahaja, jauh dari mengingati bahawasanya dia juga seperti hamba Allah Taala yang lain, dituntut untuk beribadah.

Pada suatu hari, dalam perjalanan pulangnya dari tempat kerjanya, dalam kesesakan MRT, seperti biasa Hamra keluarkan ipod nya untuk mendengar lagu. Namun, dia mendapati bateri ipod nya habis lalu dia membebel seorang, ‘alamak, buat hal pulak ipod ni….’ Terpaksalah, Hamra yang ‘dikecewakan’ ipod nya berada dalam kesesakan MRT ditemani suasana yang hiruk-pikuk dengan pelbagai gelagat orang di dalam MRT.

Disebabkan tidak tahu apa yang harus dibuatnya, Hamra memerhatikan keadaan disekeliling. Tiba-tiba, Hamra terdengar perbualan dua pelajar madrasah yang berdiri di sebelahnya, “Memang beliau seorang yang baik..Masya Allah” , “Nak sangat jumpa beliau..” , “Tidak mengapa suatu hari nanti… InsyaAllah” , “Ok, kita sama-sama berdoa…”. Hairan Hamra dibuatnya, siapakah orang yang sedang dua budak ini perbualkan? Kenapa mereka ingin sangat jumpa dengannya? Kenapa muka mereka bersinar-sinar kegembiraan ketika bercakap tentangnya?

Kerana perasaan ingin tahunya, Hamra menegur kedua pelajar itu dan tanyakan siapa yang mereka sedang cakapkan itu. Dalam kedaan masih tersenyum, seorang dari mereka menjawab , “Rasulullah Sallallahu ‘alaihiwasallam.” “Ermm…Rasul…apa dik?”Hamra bingung kerana perkataan itu begitu asing ditelinganya. Menyedari keadaan Hamra, pelajar itu berkata lagi, “Dialah Muhammad Bin Abdullah Sallallahu‘alaihiwasallam, nabi umat Islam,nabi kita. Kakak cuba google nama itu ok.” Disebabkan Hamra sudah tiba diperhentiannya, Hamra hanya mampu mengangguk dan ucapkan terima kasih sebelum keluar dari MRT itu.

Malam itu, selepas menyelesaikan tugas kerjanya, Hamra melungsuri lelaman Google dan google ‘Muhammad Bin Abdullah nabi umat Islam’. ‘Hmmm, nabi umat Islam, nabi aku jugak lah kan…’,fikir Hamra. Lelaman pertama yang keluar dari hasil pencariannya di Google terus dibukanya. Lelaman itu mengandungi biodata , sejarah hidup dan keistimewaan Nabi Muhammad SAW. Setelah membaca satu rangkap dari lelaman itu, Hamra teruskan lagi dengan rangkap seterusnya. Selepas habis dibacanya, Hamra cari lelaman lain pula. Artikel demi artikel dibacanya, semakin Hamra membaca semakin hantinya terasa dibuka oleh sesuatu.

Keesokan harinya, Hamra tidak ke kerja kerana masih banyak lagi yang ingin dibacanya tentang Nabi Muhammad SAW. Hamra mula membeli buku tentang sejarah hidup Nabi Muhammad SAW, mendatangi ceramah tentangnya, seakan-akan dirinya tidak puas untuk mencari tahu tentang Nabi Muhammad SAW. Hidup Hamra mula berubah. Tiada penjelasan lain tentang perubahan itu kecuali yang dia sudah jatuh cinta dengannya, dengan yang bernama Muhammad Bin Abdullah. Disebabkan itu, Hamra mula mengerjakan tanggungjawabnya sebagai hamba Allah Taala, apa yang disuruh Nabi dibuatnya bersungguh-sungguh dan apa yang dilarangya, Hamra menjauhinya. Ipod Hamra juga yang dahulunya dipenuhi lagu-lagu penuh khayalan, sekarang diisi dengan bacaan-bacaan Al-Quran dan selawat-selawat.


‘Seorang yang dilahirkan sebagai rahmat untuk seluruh alam,
Merupakan anugerah dan rahmat untuk diriku,
Sekali membaca tentangnya, sudah bergelora semarak cinta,
Tersentuh jiwa ini dengan keikhlasan mu, sifat penyayangmu,
Belum aku menjumpaimu, sudah engkau katakan rindu pada ku,
Belum aku melaksankan amanahku sebagai hamba Sang Pencinta,
Sudah engkau lafazkan sayang pada umatmu ini.
Bagaimana ingin ku berdepan pada mu wahai kekasih Allah SWT,
Malu Ya Rasulullah, aku malu sangat…
Aku kecewakanmua Ya Rasulullah,
Tetapi tetap engkau mengorbankan dirimu untuk aku, umat mu ini..
Sampai ke akhir hayatmu, umat mu ini masih dalam ingatan..
Sungguh, aku jatuh cinta pada mu…
Walaupun begitu, engkau telah mencintai umat mu ini terlebih dahulu..”

Hamra pun mengesat air matanya dan mengusap dadanya yang masih berombakkan kerinduan.
Kerinduan pada si kekasih, yang bernama Muhammad Bin Abdullah Sallallhu’alaihi wasallam. Dengan itu, malam menyaksikan Hamra melepaskan rindunya di atas sejadah yang telah menjadi tempat sujudnya dan tempat rintihannya pada Sang Pencinta .

Hamra bangun melakukan tahajjudnya, meminta Allah SWT agar dia dapat bertemu dengan kekasihnya. Pada malam itu juga, bulan menjadi saksi bahawa Allah Taala, Sang Pencinta, mengabulkan doa Hamra, si perindu pada kekasihNya.
Hamra meleraikan nafasnya yang terakhir ketika ditenggelami rindu. Maha Suci Allah, Yang takdirNya seindah-indah takdir yang menemukan seorang perindu pada kekasihNya. Subhanallah~


And with that,
Fi Hifzillah Taala,
Wassalam :))

Saturday, October 22, 2011

بسم الله الرحمان الرحيم. الصلاة والسلام على رسول الله وعلى آله وأصحابه اجمعين


Friday, September 2, 2011


بسم الله الرحمان الرحيم. الصلاة والسلام على رسول الله وعلى آله وأصحابه اجمعين

When you just spend a moment to ponder on these lyrics... it's not a love song for a guy.. it's a love song for the Divine. at least, it is for me. let me highlight the obvious lines that proves my 'theory right'.. heheh..
Bismillah..

"Bleeding Love"

"Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen


But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein

That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt

Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling


But nothing's greater than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe


But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see


I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love"

#which reminds me of a story... There was this one guy who was in a car with his Sheikh. Then, he wanted to see his Sheikh's reaction if he was to pop in a CD with a love song in it..
He gave it a try. Suddenly a song that goes, "Habibi... Habibi... Habibi..." which means "my lover" in Arab boosted in the car. Well, his Sheikh's reaction took him by surprise(it wasn't what he had expected)... His Sheikh began to cry. The guy suddenly overwhelmed by guilt, asked the Sheikh why he was crying when listening to love song... His Sheikh's reply.."It reminded me of my lover, Allah Taala..."
Masya Allah Taala. That's what i call, pure love that comes from a pure heart.
What if this situation were to happen to us?
Listen to a love song and we're reminded of who? *you,yourself know the answer....*
so, sometimes it confuses me. The word Habibi..which reminded this Sheikh of Allah Taala..is now being thrown out inappropriately... Allahu Taala Yahdina.

Wassalam. Fi Hifzillah Taala. :)

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

بسم الله الرحمان الرحيم. الصلاة والسلام على رسول الله وعلى آله وأصحابه اجمعين
Assalamualaikum wr wb.
Dah lama sebenarnya ana nak post dekat blog ni.. tetapi masa tidak mengizinkan. Alhamdulillah, sekarang ini ada kelapangan dan here goes my post. =)
Bismillah..
(eng+malay post)

#1. The hectic world.
Yup, the title is quite intriguing right? but, this is the reality. this world has become too hectic and i dont mean it just because there were turmoils and disasters everywhere, but too hectic because there is still too much form of ihsaan that we, the residents of the world, neglected.
How can we say the world is peaceful?
when tholibul 'ilm still disrespect their teachers in many ways.
when people backbiting one another in the most insulting way, anyone could imagine.
when people are struggling to wake for their fajr but yet quieing to watch latest movies.
when people are boasting their good deeds thru the internet.
when people use vulgarities like it's the normal way of speaking.
when people still spat over minor issues and totally ignore the major issues of our ummah.
How can we say the world is at peace?
when people are busy searching 'love' and neglecting to search for God's love.
when people thought that BGR is one of the fastest way to obtain God's love.
when people still look down upon others and say they are better.
when people live life for the sake of having fun before death appears into the picture.
when people easily give away money to buy luxury things and yet come out only with a few cents for Mosque/Madrsah/charity organisation's donation.
How can we say the world is at peace?
when there is only a few Muslims who would stand out and up for the sake of Allah Taala.
when there is only a few who would support the other Muslims who stand up for Islam.
when many muslims expect that the next Salahuddin will appear by not doing much about it.
when we, Muslims, are waiting&hoping for the arrival of Mahdi but not preparing for it, but those devil worshippers do not take a day off to prepare for the arrival of Dajjal.
when there are many who preach but do not practise, in fact, their actions contradict with what they preach. -na'uzubiilah min zalik.
Na'uzubillah min zalik.
*People, ikhwan wa akhawat.. lets be a good muslim or die trying to be one.
to be a good muslim does not mean you have to do the so called heroic bombing(NOT AT ALL) and taint Islam's name. The first war is within your own self. fight against your nafs, win the war and then go , without hesitation, spread the beauty and love of Islam.

#2. I am not the only one.
Alhamdulillah.. just recently, i got to find out that I am not the only one who is with this kind of mixed feelings, eagerness, worries and all. There are a few people who possess the same ideas, feelings and determinations and that really makes me happy. HOWEVER, those people are the brave ones, they have these feelings, ideas and they do something about them. they express their views, thoughts, detrminations and love for ISLAM and seem not afraid of critics or negative feedbacks. they are strucked to the core with their own principles. Masya Allah Taala. Barakallahu Feekum. which is far from my actions. im still a coward/loser/helpless being who still wants to play at the safe zone. Astaghfirullah....
&&I am not the only one who feels deeply for the land of Moses AS. Allah... Alhamdulillah.

till here. Fi hifzillah Taala.
Please do du'a for me, and our brother and sisters. The residents of the hectic world.
p.s. however hectic the world may be, with zikrullah, you will feel at peace inside out. That is Allah Taala's promise. and He never ever break His promises. Allahu Akbar!
Wassalam. :)

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Wednesday, August 24, 2011

بسم الله الرحمان الرحيم. الصلاة والسلام على رسول الله وعلى آله وأصحابه اجمعين

assalamualaikum semua. :)
Alhamdulillah, ana diberi kesempatan lagi untuk meng-updatekan blog ana. Heheee. Ok, today, will be Eng post day. :)

1) If you feel that there is something missing from your heart then, there really is something missing from your heart. The True Love, love of Allah SWT. You have to search for it, and if you have to struggle in order to do that, then, let it be. Allah Taala mentioned in the Quran that he created Jinn and mankind so that they worship Him. yes, we do worship Him, but is it out of love? do we worship Him just because we have to? or do we worship Him beacuse we are forced to? or do we worship Him because we love Him?
This reminds me of the words of Rabiatul Adawiyah which goes something like this.."If there is no heaven or hell, do you still worship Allah Taala?'
Think of it... think hard.. if there is no heaven or any kind of reward, do we still do good deeds?
if there is no hell or any kind of punishments, do we still avoid bad deeds? do we still hesitate to do bad stuffs? are we still propelled to meet Him?
To the extent, Rabiatul Adawiyah did dua to Allah Taala that if she does something for the sake of reward then throw her to the Hell.
This is none other than pure love, true love. alhubb alhaqiqi. For Allah Taala. Subahanallah.
Don't we want to taste the sweetness of Imaan? the sweetness of love towards Him and Rasulullah SAW? Don't we yearn and long for His ultimate Love? Don't we want Him to say to the angels, pointing at us , "Look, there, he/she's my love..."
well, im far from that. way far. Allahu Taala Yahdina.

2) Nothing lasts forever except for Allah The Almighty. :)
everyone must admit that this is superduper true.
be it things, people, friendship, relationship...and the list goes one. Nothing lasts forever.
sometimes we are rewarded with happiness, but dont we ever wonder , the happiness might be a test for us. do we remember Him when we are happy? do we look at others when we are happy? do we still do dua to Him when we're happy?
and sometimes we are tested with grief, lost and sorrow. and we ask, "Why me?" well, Why not? this is the time where we feel how far we are from Allah Taala. how far we are from deserving Rasulullah's SAW sacrifices. we're so far. and yet, He Tested us so we have the cahnce to be close to Him. and yet, youre still breathing. this is all ni'mah. blessing in disguise. Therefore thank Him for every happiness and sadness. If you love someone, everything that comes from your love one will turn out nice to you. So, if you love Allah SWT, everything that comes from Him will be a delight for you. and trust me, you will be closer to Him.
When My servants ask you about Me, then (tell them that) I am near. I respond to the call of one when he prays to Me; so they should respond to Me, and have faith in Me, so that they may be on the right path. (2:186)

3) Treat everyone nicely. treat everyone like how you yourself want to be treated. :)
Sometimes you are not being regarded the same as how you regarde someone. e.g: You regard A as your goodfriend but A regarded you as just an ordinary friend or maybe just a 'shadow'friend.
well, this is not a reason for you to not treat someone nicely. Rasululullah SAW is the best example on how we should react. Look, eventhough Rasulullah was treated badly and hurt badly but he SAW did not return those acts with a bad one , instead He treated them nicely. He even forgave the killer of his beloved Uncle, Sayyidina Hamzah RA although he was killed in a brutal manner. so if we claim that we love Rasulullah SAW, why dont we follow his steps? :)
(Say (O Prophet): “If you really love Allah, then follow me, and Allah shall love you and forgive you your sins. Allah is Most-Forgiving, Very-Merciful.” (3:31))

-thats all for now. wallahu A'alam. everything good comes from The Best. and all the mistakes comes from ana.
Wassalam, Fi Amanillah.

*"Our Lord, do not make our hearts go astray after You have guided us, and grant us mercy from Yourself. You grant mercy without measure."*
BismillahirRahmanirRaheem

Oh Allah...
I said 2 You: I'm in pain
You said: 'Do not despair of the mercy of Allah' (39:53)

I said 2 You: Nobody knows what is in my heart
...You said: 'Verily, in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find rest' (13:28)

I said 2 You: Many people hurt me
You said: 'So pardon them and ask forgiveness for them' (3:159)

I said 2 You: I feel I'm alone
You said: 'We are closer to him than [his] jugular vein' (50:16)

*credits to FB page Im a Muslim & Im Proud*

Thursday, August 18, 2011

بسم الله الرحمان الرحيم. الصلاة والسلام على رسول الله وعلى آله وأصحابه اجمعين

2nd post of the day.
I would love to post quotes from Ibn AlQayyim AlJawziyyah.
first and foremost, this is a brief introduction on who Ibn alQayyim is.
Ibn Al-Qayyim Al-Jawzziya the great Muslim scholar known for his wise saying and Quotes was born in Damascus, Syria. The real name of al-Qayyim is Muhammad Ibn Abi Bakr but He was named after His father who was an attendant (Qayyim) in a school named Al-Jawzziya. Ibn Qayyim became a student of renowned Muslim Scholar Imam ibn Tayymiyah. Ibn Qayyim Al-Jawziyya was an accomplished scholar of Islamic science and was particularly known for His commentaries.

& here are some of his quotes:
#“Repel the thought, for if you don’t, it becomes an idea. So repel the idea; for if you don’t it will become a desire. So fight against that (desire), for if you don’t, it will become a determination and a passion. And if you don’t repel that, it will become an action. And if you don’t replace it with its opposite, it will become a constant habit. So at that point, it will be difficult for you to change it.” Ibn Qayyim al-Jawziyyah

# “O people who take pleasure in a life that will vanish; falling in love with a fading shadow is sheer stupidity” Ibn al-Qayyim

# “The heart will rest and feel relief if it is settled with Allah and it will worry and be anxious if it is settled with people.” Ibn al-Qayyim

# “And verily for everything that a slave loses there is a substitute, but the one who loses Allah will never find anything to replace Him.” Ibn al-Qayyim

# “The ibtilaa’ (testing) of the believer is like medicine for him. It cures him from illness. Had the illness remained it would destroy him or diminish his reward and level (in the hereafter). The tests and the trials extract these illnesses from him and prepare him for the perfect reward and the highest of degrees (in the life to come).” Ibn Qayyim

# “The scholars of evil sit at the doors of Al-Jannah (Paradise) calling the people to it with their speech, but calling to the fire with their actions; every time they speak their words to the people they rush forward whilst their actions suggest not to listen to them- for if what they had been calling to was true, they would have been the first to respond. Thus they are seemingly guides, but are in fact highway robbers.” Ibn Qayyim

Wallahu A'alam.
Wassalamu'alaikum.